Tuesday, February 24, 2009

I Miss Him


Look at that handsome man holding my son. My dad has been gone 1 whole year and it seems like it has been 10, and yet some days it seems like I just saw him and gave him a hug. I was thinking about him the other night and the little things that I miss about him.

I miss him calling me "Nicollie" (Long and drawn out); I miss him calling me his "Precious Kid." ; I miss his laugh when he was making a joke to tease you and how he would say "Oh, Sorry" and then laugh again. I also miss him telling me that everything will be ok and that all will work out, when I am having hard days.

Living in Michigan has taken me away from a lot of heartache, because I am not as close to my family and his absence, but at the same time I feel sad that I am not there for my mom and sister and that all I can do to help is to talk on the phone. I feel that dad left the family affairs to me and sometimes I don't think I do the best job taking care of everyone. He always had everything under control and what he couldn't control he basically would say,"To hell with it." I would give anything to see him again, to talk to him again and to hug him again. I do sometimes see him in my dreams and it seems so real and then I wake up and remember that he is gone, and the void returns. He was such a wonderful man and this world is a better place because he was in it. Love you dad and I miss you so very, very much!

5 comments:

WESTWOOD'S said...

Well-you brought the tears out. We're thinking of you and had you guys on our minds all day on Friday. What a hard day. Love ya!

Scott and Sunny Nielsen said...

Love you Nic.

Lynn and Priscilla's family said...

That first year goes by so fast and yet so slow....My heart is aching for you guys right now. Love ya...

The Adventures of Cody and Rachel Cox said...

Nicole, I couldn't have said it any better. I feel exactly that way when I think of my father. He's been gone almost a year and a half now. I'm not sure that it will ever hurt any less than it does now, but you have my prayers that among all that hurt you find happiness everyday to help balance the pain.

-Rachel

Chris, Carly & Coen!! said...

I'm tearing up a bit... You know that you'll see him again. And you know that he is more perfect now than he was here... if that can even happen. He was an amazing man and touched many people's lives. :)