Look at that handsome man holding my son. My dad has been gone 1 whole year and it seems like it has been 10, and yet some days it seems like I just saw him and gave him a hug. I was thinking about him the other night and the little things that I miss about him.
I miss him calling me "Nicollie" (Long and drawn out); I miss him calling me his "Precious Kid." ; I miss his laugh when he was making a joke to tease you and how he would say "Oh, Sorry" and then laugh again. I also miss him telling me that everything will be ok and that all will work out, when I am having hard days.
Living in Michigan has taken me away from a lot of heartache, because I am not as close to my family and his absence, but at the same time I feel sad that I am not there for my mom and sister and that all I can do to help is to talk on the phone. I feel that dad left the family affairs to me and sometimes I don't think I do the best job taking care of everyone. He always had everything under control and what he couldn't control he basically would say,"To hell with it." I would give anything to see him again, to talk to him again and to hug him again. I do sometimes see him in my dreams and it seems so real and then I wake up and remember that he is gone, and the void returns. He was such a wonderful man and this world is a better place because he was in it. Love you dad and I miss you so very, very much!